I’m really struggling today with this whole Sobriety thing. I can’t seem to get more than a few months under my belt before I relapse again. I was home with a sick little one and triggers started to come up . I use to take days off to dink at home. I KNEW I did not want to drink yesterday but I kept thinking about it. I couldn’t stop. I cleaned the kitchen, mopped, swept the carpet. Started doing Laundry and folding clothes. I worked remotely from home yesterday too. But alas at 3pm I caved and opened a bottle of wine. I drank the whole thing !
I feel like I’m going to go insane with this alcoholism. It’s littlerly driving me crazy. Before when I was drinking and didn’t care, life was soo different. I just feel like I’m in a constant battle to try to change. I may loose my mind today, just maybe! Sorry, short rant over. I’m going to read on these sober blogs and see if I can find some hope today.