Yesterday was a rough day with my anxiety in all. I mottled through the day. Stuttering occasionally and avoiding eye contact until five pm came around.
I came home last night and made dinner. Then I sat down and watched some T.V. with the kids. I kept thinking wine, wine, and wine. I thought to myself maybe I’ll go grab some sweets at the store instead. All the while in the back of my mind, still thinking…..wine.
I looked at the clock eight pm, almost time for bed. Then I did it, I grabbed my shoes, keys and hopped into the car. I put the key into the ignition and nothing. It wouldn’t start! I got frustrated and lifted the hood. This is a new Honda, only two years old. I thought “The battery must be loose.” I fiddled around and heard the horn go off. I got back in and I put the key in the ignition. Bright dash lights, Oooo, then nothing. I picked the hood back up and tried to tighten the loose screw, the threads were missing. I banged my hands on the steering wheel and looked up and said, OK! OK! OK! OK!
I went to bed sober last night.