I’m in complete awe that I have to write this. I’m back on day one.
I thought over Christmas it would be a great idea to reward myself for a job well done and have one glass of wine. I had one glass that day and then decided to drink over New Year’s Eve.
I was surprise at how well I handled it, my alcohol. I was pleased that I didn’t crave more after my drink. I felt like maybe, just maybe I was healed.
But here’s the thing. I wasn’t and I’m not!
I drank in excess yesterday, I couldn’t stop, and I craved and searched all over the house for more. I don’t remember much. I’m full of guilt and embarrassed to have to say this, but here I am, day one.